Journal Reflection

After writing for forty days everyday I could see that more than writing about the journey I was planning on having, and that is the purpose of the life, I was writing about the things that appeared in that journey that affected the everyday journey more than the big picture journey. This was reflected on the stress situations which I ended up writing about on the everyday basis that in one way or another changed the attitude towards the journey I wanted to develop.  Of course this is consequence of the frequency of the writing, being everyday one could not draw a bigger picture of what was happening, but in the same way I could let out lots of things that are not part of the big picture of the journey. For example, sometimes I ended up writing about topics that really bothered me and that were even affecting my compasses, but more on that later. I guess that’s what going for the jugular is, but it took me some time to really feel comfortable writing about things even though I was sure no one would ever read it. I guess even I wasn’t comfortable with the thing I wrote about and that’s why it was so hard, which made me realize there were a lot more things I wasn’t comfortable with than I thought. This got a lot better with time and I ended up being able to write about almost anything without being embarrassed or not feeling good with it. Another thing that changed from day one to now is the blank spaces in my mind when I tried to write, those times when you got nothing and you hover the pen on the page. Well those got better since, and I believe it goes hand to hand with the being comfortable, now I go for the jugular with no hovering and thinking spaces in between that made my writing a lot harder when I started.